the log ; redemption

-.-'', it had ended isn't it?
after for like a month we had been fasting
then for like a month celebrating Eid ul-Fitr,
without even we realizing it, it had ended, both of them.
time really flew fast isn't it?

wish I could do something about it,
slowing the time or turn back time,
ha! time, its something beyond our imagination
and there's nothing mortal like us can do about it,
change it not even mend it.

as the time flew by,
my day in CFSIIUM also flew so fast.
I cant believe that I've been there for almost like 5 month
:and there goes my day, without me utilizing it as maximized as possible :'C
and now I'm having my final break for the first semester,
hell yeah!! my first semester has ended like 3 weeks ago,
i even lost count of my holiday.

on holiday eh? yet I'm still worried thinking about my semester 1 final exam,
which i think i did not perform that very well on it,
T-T , its my fault though,
I spend most of my times playing games and sleeping back in semester 1.
and now, I'm still waiting with patience for the result of my final exam,
I hope Fate and Luck can do something about it and turn the wheels over for me, :D.

but if it so that my result is not that good,
it will not kill my determination and depressed me,
as they said, there's always a silver lining behind every cloud
so i will just accept it as it is and use it as a stepping stone to achieve my dream.

i hope that, this coming semester will means a lot to me,
hope that i can redeem what I've lost in the first semester.






fear regret not failure :D

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the log ; reminisce

fuhh, its almost 4 months since the last time i updated my blog,
pretty busy man i am nowadays, :D
i don't know, but the mood of writing something is not there for these past few months,
the new life kept me busy running around.

so, 4 months had passed, fast isn't it?
lot of thing occurred over this few months
and I don't have the feeling of telling it right now.

the 27th day of Ramadan, we're at the end, aren't we?
in a blink, the day went so fast, it's seems almost like yesterday I fast on the 1st day of Ramadan.

this holy month, make me reminisce something which I have never realized about it back then. it makes me reminisce of the spirit of being in Ramadan.

back then, when I was in my secondary school, the spirit is stupendous, I can say that.
I remembered the moment I try my best to skipped Tarawih and at the end get caught, haha, thanks to the warden of course .:D
I also remembered the moment me and my classmate about to break fast, pretty chaotic that time, I can say everyday, they were having a cat and dog fight, haha.
And the best part of having Ramadan back then is, the time where we can go back home, haha, I can never have this feeling anymore since every week my mom will come and fetch me.

seems like those feeling can never be the same eh? haha, fine, what is done is done.
may this Ramadan is not the best for me, I hope this can be the best for you(I know its kinda late for this kind of thing :D)

Happy Ramadan Al Mubarak . :D

the log; rebirth

it had been almost a month since the first day i registered here,

it had been so good here since then.
friends, life, routine, everything revolves around me is becoming better,
and I'm thankful to Allah for that.

since I started the new life at the new place,
I discovered something - I have to be a new ME.
it means that I have to change, totally change.
as the saying goes, turn over a new leaf.


so, I've figured it out and decided that I have to undergoes the process of rebirth,
rebirth, or so-called by me. sounds exciting isn't it?
so, everything's started again from zero.

and I found that, this rebirth process is very effective.
and I like the new ME.
it's not like ME becoming a hypocrite or so.
it is just I'd discovered a counter part of me, somewhere hidden lies beneath my self.
I should have done it before, but there's no use to crying over a spilled milk.

maybe, most of u criticized ME for not being myself and hypocrite.
as I've mentioned before, this is not ME-being-hypocrite or myself.
well if you do, I don't give a damn fucking care about it and if u don't, well, thanks.

everything's in this world change, time change, tide change it course,
and so does human. So, as a human living in a community, we have to change ourselves so that we can blend in with the community.
I'm tired of becoming the old ME, and this is my choice.
back then, when I'd reunion with my primary school's friend,
I asked myself and wondering - why these peoples look very different, there's something about them that I cannot find myself knowing them.
Now, I knew why.

I hope that this is the best for ME.
;D

a revolution yet an evolution

CFSIIUM or what they called as Center for Foundation Studies International Islamic University Malaysia. Well, actually this is the place where i have to spend another 1 and a half year studying foundation for engineering. When the results were out on the first of May or so, me and my mom were quiet shocked and frustrated. She's hoping for me to get UiTM or so, and I was like; huh!!!, UIA????.

Last Friday (21st May 2010), I went through the registration process; it's quiet hot and chaotic that day - luckily I'm well prepared, so, not much into problems. Mahallah Abu-Bakar or what the senior called as ABC, stand for Abu Bakar College is where my room located at. Luckily, i was located at the first floor, no much worrying about losing my fat..=)).

So, the orientation week a.k.a Ta'ruf week went smoothly, the only problems that i faced is I only brought only a piece of white shirt - well, i thought that I can wear others colored shirt but the fact is;ONLY WHITE COLORED SHIRT ARE ALLOWED DURING TA'RUF WEEK. So, i had to washed it 3x during the ta'ruf week.

By the end of the orientation week, I get pumped up - knowing that we're going to start the academy session soon. To be frank, my brain need some work out; it's kinda freezing inside there. What i hoped from CFSIIUM is; I can perform my very best here and proof to everyone that I CAN DO IT IF I WANT TO DO SO. Another things is i also realised that UiTM is not meant for me, and IIUM is where my destiny lies. So, farewell UiTM and say hello to CESIUM.


so, folks, hope u entertained!! and wish me all the best.

adamaya

for those who watched adamaya, a YAY! for you guys.
this is the OST of the drama, i think.

Dakmie - Yang Terindah

Semenjak kau hadir dalam hidupku
Tiada lagi keresahan
Kau mengetuk pintu hatiku
Tanpa sedar hingga ku izinkan

Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah

Maaf jika ku tidak sempurna
Tika bahagia mula menjelma
Bila keyakinan datang merasa
Kasih disalut dengan kejujuran

Mencintai dirimu
Merindui dirimu
Memiliki dirimu
Hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu

Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah

Kau yang bernama cinta
Hingga aku rasa indah

nice, isn't it?

tres el mes; marzo

should i label this month as woebegone month?

11th March, the date, the day and the moment of truth..

we went to Taiping early that morning,
when we arrived, the result is still with the teachers,
we waited with patience in the hall, everyone,
we laugh, we chat, we're not even realized that that day is the moment of truth,

when we saw the staff, the sullenness surrounded us because we knew that they have our result with them,
everyone zoomed to their respective class, eager to know the result.
but me, hesitated, undecided, almost to cry, and my mom forced me to take the result..
i have no choice but to face the tarot of fate,
when i received the slip, i waited until my mom forced me to open it up..

i open it with care hoping for the best,
when i saw it, i knew, i deserve it,
but does my mom knew bout it?
i fell in silence thinking bout my mom,
What does she felt? Will she be mad at me?



frantically surprising, my mom said to me; takpe lah bang, u have done ur best
again, i felt in silence, she's really my mom;
a compassionate words that come out from a mother's mouth, a meaningful one,

2 years back then, I saw my mom cried in happiness because of my PMR's result, same goes with my UPSR, she cried in happiness.
But this years, 11th March 2010, i see no tears of happiness rolling down her cheek, what can i heard is, the comforting word and maybe frustration look on her face.

I love u mom!!!
thanks for the great word..



that moment i knew something; this is not the end of everything, this is just a beginning to a something..

the rest of the month, went slowly, i don't know why, the tide has fade maybe.
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